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Freddie Mercury’s Bisexuality: Iconic Erasure

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On September 5th, Queen fans around the world, myself included, celebrated the 70th birthday of the man freddie-mercury3who is without a doubt one of the greatest rockstars of all time. Despite his untimely death in 1991 at the age of 45, Freddie Mercury has left an indelible mark on the music world. He had a notoriously flamboyant stage presence but when away from the spotlight, he was a rather private figure and there is still much speculation and misconception surrounding his personal life more than twenty-five years after his passing.

As someone who identifies as bisexual, I am consistently appalled by the fact that in media, there is a visible lack of bisexual representation and it has only been in recent years that bisexuality has begun to become more accepted as valid. One of my personal idols in this respect is, you guessed it, Freddie Mercury. However, an astonishing percentage of media still portray him as gay in spite of the fact that, he was openly bisexual. He had relationships with both men and women and never formally came out as gay. This is a classic example of bisexual erasure, or the tendency to avoid the topic of bisexuality or to otherwise question or challenge its validity both in historical and contemporary contexts. It is conducive to biphobia, although it may not seem overtly so. In the case of Mercury, there may be several reasons behind the denial of his sexual orientation.

My theory on the matter is that one of the main reasons that his bisexuality is often ignored is his cause of death. Mercury suffered from AIDS and died of bronchial pneumonia brought on by the immunodeficiency-causing virus at a time where it was still highly stigmatized. His death came only a day after officially confirming rumours that he did indeed suffer from AIDS. With the epidemic in the 1980s, the disease was demonized and was mainly associated with the gay community, as a majority of those who suffered from AIDS in the US were gay, including the first man to be diagnosed and the man to be dubbed as Patient Zero. In fact, AIDS used to be known as Gay-Related Immune Deficiency (GRID).

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Because Freddie Mercury was known to have sexual relations with other men and he ended up contracting HIV/AIDS, it makes it very easy to ignore the rest of his personal history and focus solely on this fact. The correlation between homosexuality and AIDS may be a large reason why Mercury is often remembered as gay, along with the fact that his last long-term partner before his passing was a man. He was also notoriously promiscuous, a quality which, at the time, was also more commonly associated with the gay community (even though now many bisexuals are labelled as ‘greedy’ or more promiscuous than monosexuals). Of course, the stigma surrounding bisexuality must still play some form of a role, given that even many years after his death, this misinformation is still prevalent. Fun fact: Freddie Mercury’s Wikipedia page never explicitly states that he was bisexual and instead focuses on him being gay. It is only at the bottom of the page under ‘Categories’ that the word ‘bisexual’ is even used in the entire article.

Throughout my own research, I could only find a few sources that denied that Mercury was gay and maintained that he was bisexual. One of main ties that bind the claims that he was gay was from a 1974 interview in which he is quoted as saying, “I’m as gay as a daffodil, my dear!” The main issue with this quote is when it is taken out of context. In 1974, Mercury was still in a long-term relationship with Mary Austin and the two did not break it off until 1976 and later briefly rekindled their romance. The two remained very close friends even after the split. It is true that around this time, Mercury had begun an affair with a male American music executive, which was his first documented homosexual relationship. However, he still had relationships with women well into the 1980s, the most famous of which was with Austrian actress Barbara Valentin. Not only could Mercury have been using gay in the sense of happiness, but the term bisexual was still not commonly used at the time. In an obituary written in The Star after his death in 1991, Mercury is described as a “self-confessed bi-sexual” and is quoted saying,

Love is like Russian Roulette for me, I’ve tried either side – male and female – but all of them have gone wrong. […]

Forty years after the release of Bohemian Rhapsody, Mercury’s biographer Lesley-Ann Jones revealed that the song was Mercury’s way of coming out and that he played at being straight for the sake of his family. In spite of the 01-freddie-mercuryevidence that supports this claim, Mercury himself never never made any statement regarding the song’s meaning and all statements regarding Rhapsody‘s purpose as a coming-out piece were made by other people and after Mercury’s death. In the blog post in which Jones reveals this information, she also mentions that when she personally asked Mercury about the characters in his magnum opus, he never gave her an answer.

Taken all in all, there is still a significant amount of mystery and conflicting accounts regarding whether Freddie Mercury was bisexual or not. Unfortunately it is unlikely that the world will get any definitive proof aside from his personal history and a handful of interviews. In spite of this, failure to acknowledge even the mere possibility that Mercury was not gay and was instead bisexual is testament to the fact that the world is still not yet ready to fully accept bisexuality’s validity. Regardless of who he was in his personal life, Mercury was one of, if not the greatest showman of the 20th century. His musical legacy continues to live on years after his death and his and Queen’s reign as one of the most influential rock bands lives on.

 

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What Is The Olympic Spirit? (Part 2)

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In Part 1, I discussed ways that I thought the Rio Olympics shed a negative light upon the games and went against what I feel is the fundamental spirit of the Olympics. Now, in Part 2, I will strive to answer the question, “What exactly is the Olympic Spirit? What sets the Olympics apart from other international events?”


The Olympics are without a doubt one of the most widely broadcasted, covered and watched events in the world and have a special way of bringing people together. Athletes from all four corners of the world unite once every two years (alternating winter and summer) to bring the games to life, both in sport and in theatrics. Not only do the Olympics spark rivalries between competitors and their respective nations, but they also bring forth an incredible amount of national pride, a carnival atmosphere and the cheers of millions. They create a temporary pocket in space and time where nothing else seems to matter except the games.

Friendships of legendary proportions are born.
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Teamwork brings entire nations to their feet in celebration of a first taste of victory.
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Tenacity rewards those who persevere to the very end.
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Even the best of the best can be unseated by an unexpected victor.
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And no matter what flag you wear, sportmanship prevails when a competitor goes down.
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 The Olympics represent the best of what hard work, international collaboration and a passion for striving for the best that humans can achieve can create. Their spirit is something that is perhaps difficult to put into words, but can be felt in the energy of the crowd, in the pride of a nation brought to its feet and in the solidarity of those gathered together to celebrate sport. The Olympic Creed reads,

“The most important thing in the Olympic Games is not to win but to take part, just as the most important thing in life is not the triumph but the struggle. The essential thing is not to have conquered but to have fought well.”

Perhaps it is in this creed, one that lies in the heart of every athlete, that we may find words to help sum up what exactly the Olympic Spirit is. It states that participating and taking part in the games are more important than winning and that, just like in life, individual victories are outshone by the obstacles that one has overcome to reach where they are. For many athletes, the road to the Olympics has been a long and treacherous one. It is in their struggle that they rise to the podium, lighting up the hearts of many nations along the way. This is what it means to be an Olympian and this is the heart of the Olympic Spirit.

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Introducing YAA’s New Life Editor, Hafsah Syed

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I’m happy to have been the Life Junior Editor since last summer, but I’m even more proud to announce Youth Are Awesome’s new Life Editor who will be taking up my position. Overcoming Failure: You Can Do It! was Hafsah Syed‘s entry into YAA and since then, she has been known for her articles about self-improvement, poetry and social issues. Through my personal interactions with her, I can say that she’s an insightful, conscientious and compassionate individual. On the other hand, she’s also down-to-earth – she’s the everyday high school student who procrastinates, watches Netflix and worries about her future. An eloquent writer and a driven leader, I have no doubt that she will do a great job in this new position and continue to influence others through her articles.

Getting to Know Hafsah

Hafsah is heading into Grade 12 at Crescent Heights and has ambitions to further her involvement this year. She is the Team Leader for the Youth Volunteer Corps (YVC) Club in her school. Their main project is making sandwiches which they deliver to The Alex Center each week and to support this program, they regularly hold fundraisers.

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Additionally, she is an active member of her Student Council which works on various projects within and outside of school. In particular, she founded the Syrian Aid Committee which was able to sponsor 10 Syrian refugees in Turkey through an external charity. The initiative went towards providing the refugees with food and the opportunity to send their kids to school.

When asked what her favourite volunteering experience was, her mind went back to Student Council:

We’re always constantly doing something. Whatever we’re doing, we’ve thought of it. It’s not like someone else is in front of the class telling us what to do, who to donate to; we’re the ones really in charge. The thing with Student Council is that there’s like 10 different committees, every committee is doing their own thing – dance, organizing something humanitarian. It always has something to offer.

Her motivation to be involved comes from the fact that she feels privileged. I asked her about the biggest obstacle she’s had to overcome in her life: “Hearing other peoples’ stories, I feel like I haven’t seen any real obstacles. It’s mostly been fighting with myself and figuring out who I am. When you hear about other peoples’ stories, they’ve been through so much – domestic violence, mental issues, stuff like that. Really complicated and intense obstacles. I haven’t been faced with such intensity. Which is part of why I’m pushing myself so much to achieve so much. If I’ve been so privileged, then I should be achieving pretty damn much. I feel like I don’t have an excuse to not do good in whatever I’m doing.”

Main Goal in Life

Hafsah’s passion for social issues and drive for success is also intertwined with what she wants in life. She is thinking of going to the University of Calgary or Mount Royal University. Her first program of choice is nursing while her second choice is psychology. After a trip to her home country of Pakistan, she realized the value of becoming a nurse – the skills can be used to help people everywhere. It was her first real experience in a developing country and it has left a lasting impact on her. She plans to go back to Pakistan when she becomes a nurse or doing social work in another country through Doctors Without Borders.

She that her main goal in life is: “To be financially stable, be happy with what I’m doing and be helping others. Be financially stable – nursing/psychologist. Like what I’m doing – I like biology, actually I love biology. And helping people of course.”

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Hafsah and I had actually just finished a volunteering shift for serving lunch at Salvation Army, a homeless shelter. We discussed about the topic of poverty in Pakistan, but I wanted to hear thoughts on the issue of homelessness in Calgary:

Homelessness is really difficult because there’s not just one, simple solution. If it was so simple, then homelessness would be solved right now. People run away or they face domestic abuse – there’s so many stories. I feel like it’s mostly a result of people not having opportunities. If you look at it, most people don’t have jobs and which is why they’re homeless. And they don’t have jobs because they don’t have the opportunities or the skills. I don’t think that’s something people just with money should get. If you’re rich, then you can an education. I feel like we should create more opportunities for homeless people in Calgary.

A Tangible Impact

She really emphasized how she wanted to create a tangible impact. Much like the adage of teaching a man to fish and feeding him for life, Hafsah gave this example: “Teaching someone how to sew, that’s so simple – right? They can continue to support themselves throughout their entire life.

This type of mindset is also reflected in one of Hafsah’s favourite articles that she’s written: Pens, Anyone? | Bringing Waves Of Change And Aid: The First Step. She discusses the story of Abdul Halim al-Attar, a Syrian refugee who was pictured selling pens while carrying his sleeping daughter. The photo sparked sympathy and caught the attention of an online journalist who decided to start an Indiegogo campaign to raise money for the man and his family. 

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“Donations poured in, and together the world made a whopping $191 000 for them. Since then, al-Attar has opened two bakeries and a kebab shop, in which he employs and supports 16 Syrian refugees. Not only that, but his nine-year-old son has begun attending school after being absent for three years, his daughter has toys to play with now, and they’ve moved from living in a single bedroom to a two bedroom apartment.

All the change in the world begins with you. Similar to the passer-by who photographed al-Attar, similar to the man who started the fundraising campaign, pay attention and heed to events and issues taking place, locally and globally […] Do not turn your head away from those in need; do not ignore their existence. Even if you have no money nor time to spare, turn towards them, flash a smile and say hello; that kind and simple gesture might be exactly the thing they were needing.

Advice for Writers and about Life

This is just one example of Hafsah’s writing, but pick any article she’s written and it is clear that she is a talented writer. With this said, I wanted to know about her advice to other writers. She explains: “When you feel really strongly about something, don’t suppress your ideas or feelings. Chances are, people are going to love your work. Anyways, you’re not writing for the purpose of seeking other peoples’ approval.”

Her life philosophy is: “Put in as much as effort as you can in anything and everything you do. If you work hard for something, even if you fail, you won’t regret it. But if you fail and you didn’t work hard, then you’ll probably beat yourself up. What’s the point in doing something if you’re not putting in all of your effort?

In many ways, I see myself in her – in the way that she views the world and her approach to life. Her advice really resonates with me and I think she’s the perfect fit as the new Life Junior Editor. On her end, she’s excited to help lead “such a bright group of people”, as she put it. I look forward to see what she accomplishes in the future. She is a reminder of how Youth Are Awesome. 

 

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Dear Senior Me: Relax, You’re Going to Graduate

Dear Senior Me,

If there was one person who fell into the “grade-11-is-the-hardest-year” trap, it was undoubtedly you.

Though procrastination, taking on too many things at once, and not using time wisely are seemingly the qualities of any high school student, as the year dragged on, you became the poster child for it.

It didn’t take long for everything to have its huge effect on you considering you start grade 12 tomorrow, and you’re still haunted by the 9 months of school you didn’t know you would get through.

Now, how is any of that relevant to graduating? For anyone who didn’t know you at all, they’d think you were a lost cause, waiting for the inevitability of not getting their diploma. Call it dramatic, but all your life, you took pride in the fact school came easy to you. After a year of not feeling competent and anything close to pride, you saw metaphorical doors closing on opportunities you always thought were in your reach. Everything just became harder to power through. Whether it was due to external factors or lack of personal motivation – you still don’t really know – I’m just glad you had a change of heart this summer.

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How 2 months awakened me from a 9-month-long slump

Getting a higher education, having a steady career, and just having a bright, self-made future were never options. All I thought about these last 2 months was making sure they would happen. I knew grade 12 is going to be different in the sense it is “the beginning of the end.” Applying to universities, wearing my graduation gown, and saying goodbye to classmates all seemed light years away, but now, earlier than most, I’ve been hit by those realities.

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Last choir concert with my grade 12 friends

I always find myself looking weeks, months, and years into the future. So when grade 11 was less-than-ideal, I unconsciously was in an end-all, be-all state. Somehow, I justified one bad grade or one late assignment would be determining factors in the success I have in life. But like I said, I had a change of heart. It was nothing close to an epiphany or something to write about in-detail. If anything, summer just became the perfect opportunity to find clarity. I started a mental list of all the things I had to lose should I let grade-12-Kandace be passive. It scared me how extensive that list became. (Just to name a few: my parents’ trust, my friends’ confidence in me, getting accepted by a university.)

So, like any person trying to find clarity, I had a goal I would work towards, which was ingraining into my head how important it is to let my passions lead me towards success. I am achieving that by:

Having Organization
It drives me absolutely insane if I have no organization in my life. If I don’t write on paper or type something in my phone that I will need for later, I will become very stressed. In order to avoid that, I use Google Drive for everything. Need help with research? Do you need to store pictures? Have documents that need to be filed? Need an awesome calendar you can easily customize and get notifications for? Then Google Drive will be your best friend.

It also doesn’t hurt to have a planner or agenda where you write. every. single. thing. happening. in. your. life. down. From personal experience, I would either be too lazy or forget to write things down, so I now use Google Calendar since I always have my phone with me!

Finding Personal Motivation
We all have things that keep us going through the day, and what I find that personally helps with motivation are YouTubers. Not just any YouTuber, though, but the ones who will constantly push you to do your best.

I highly suggest you watch education-focused channels, such as Gabby Aikawa and Thomas Frank. I can easily binge-watch their videos because they are informative, but also inspiring. Knowing these people have accomplished some of my biggest goals in life truly bring out the power in myself to strive for what I want!

Implementation
Just now starting this part, something to keep in mind is I know I have the resources to accomplish my goal. My parents, friends, teachers, counselors, the Internet. Everything is there, but I must remember I have to take action. I’m sure I’m not the only person who feels disconnected with others at times, so I can’t be doing everything on my own. It’s okay to accept help when you need it simply because it is there.

While the answer to all my life’s problems can’t be solved by just these three, it is definitely a start. The more I thought about it, I had the aspects kept in the back of my mind last school year, but they just stayed there. Find it within yourself to take initiative because that’s when everything starts going.

Dear Senior Me,

You might not have it all figured out yet, but I know you’ll get there. Grade 12 will be a sentimental journey, full of hard work and good memories. I’m certain you’ll walk the stage proudly at graduation because knowing you, you want to take any chance you get at feeling like you’re in a High School Musical movie.

So just remember: you wouldn’t be writing this if you weren’t sure enough you were actually going to do it.

Best wishes,

Kandace  🙂

Falling With YAA: Golden Skeletons, An Original Poem

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Oh blowing, rustling trees

Beneath the starry skies,

Beaming under the moonlight,

How shall I address your beauty today?

Shall I speak of your golden leaves,

Or the roots beneath the sole of my feet.

Or shall I  speak of your branches

That wave at me when I’m alone.

I shall epistolize of your courage

That withheld during storms, rain and snow.

Today, however,

Your broken, fallen leaves

Dwindle, wilt, and dry.

Skeletons and flakes garner in sheaves

Crackling as I slowly pass by.

Following the leaves is a pungent scent,

Where it is they fall and die.

Surely nature requires no consent,

As to whom it [temporarily] says goodbye.

– Hafsah Syed

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Gaza: Two Years After The War

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The last time I read this heart-breaking poem, written by Khaled Juma as a tribute to Gaza’s children, was two years ago, when the large-scale bloodshed in the Gaza-Israel conflict came to an end. Noting the approximate 1500 civilian casualties and 500,000 displacements (x), the dilapidated schools, homes and hospitals, the astonishing 44% unemployment rate and the continuously collapsing economy in Gaza (x), it is appropriate to say all h*ll broke loose during the 2014 Israel-Gaza conflict, which has barely been tidied up.

Gaza Strip could become “uninhabitable” by 2020. -UN

In a report published by the United Nations in 2015, it is warned that “the Gaza strip could become uninhabitable by 2020 if the current economic conditions persist” (x). The three military operations in Gaza over the past six years, the slow rate of rebuilding, bailing international donors, along with the Israel-imposed restrictions on Gaza’s imports [as Israel’s strategy to fight off terrorism], are hindering development in Gaza (x). In 2015, a senior UN official said that at the current rate of reconstruction, it would take 30 years to rebuild Gaza’s damaged infrastructure(x). The living conditions of Gazans prove to be perhaps equally worse, with 95% of their drinking water labelled as unsafe (x) 13,000 families still displaced (x), and 300,000 in need of psychosocial support (x).

Are world leaders waiting for 2020 to arrive or the next deadly conflict, in order to begin taking concrete actions to help secure the future of Gaza’s innocent?

Also, will helping to secure the future of Palestinians equate to threatening the future of Israel, or will it help to ease the frustration and tension between the two nations?

 


Background: Gaza, Palestine – A small strip of land between present-day Israel and Egypt, home to about 1.8 million people. Palestine has suffered through serious geographical struggles, the land being reduced over the years as a result of historical quarrels between neighboring countries and today, to the building of illegal Israeli settlements. The tension and frustration between Israel and Palestine is always on a rise, largely as a result of Palestinian resentment regarding the growing number of illegal Israeli settlements and the strong Israel-imposed restrictions, regulations, and influence over significant societal and economic factors, such as imports, exports, travel, and fishing borders- factors important for the growth and development of a nation and its society. 


 

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Growing, Learning, and Changing – A Reflection on My Time at SUNIA

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“How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.”

-A.A. Milne, Winnie the Pooh

If you remember the posts from Danielle and I a few weeks ago, we, along with Richard, recently returned from being part of a 64 year tradition known as SUNIA. The 5-day camp brought together high school students from all across Canada and encouraged us to discuss important global and community issues while reveling in the gorgeous landscape of the Rockies. When I had signed up for the camp after watching their very convincing promotional video at U of C HSMUN back in February, I had expected the experience to be an educational camp where 60-or-so kids gathered to learn more about the United Nations and went on hikes in between. The prospect of that was enough to get me to sign up, but what I ended up getting out of it was so much more.

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Going into SUNIA, I had brought a lot of personal baggage with me that really weighed down on me. I came in feeling sorry for myself and the situation I had recently found myself in; my mind was scrambled in many different directions. I had been incredibly excited for my time at SUNIA for the entirety of the summer, but circumstances made it difficult for me to want to leave the comfort of my home and the support of my family in the days before, and I had doubts about going right from the get-go. On the first night, I was honestly concerned that I wouldn’t have a good time because of the weight of my personal problems, and while I was able to forget about them momentarily and make friends on the bus ride up to the Goldeye Centre, there was always a layer of sadness that I would come to in the background that was like white noise; a constant bug in the back of my head reminding me that I wasn’t okay. Looking back, I wish I could’ve pushed aside those feelings and forced myself to make more friends right away, but I also accept that I needed time to mull over my situation as it was. It is at this point that I really have to thank Danielle for all that she was there for that week, because we were going through something similar, we were able to be each other’s support systems. Even though Danielle and I spent the first night crammed on a sofa chair in melancholy, even just thinking back to all the laughs we had and friends we made on the way up to camp, it doesn’t seem like a surprise to me now that we would go on to have such a rewarding and joy-filled week.

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Going through what we went through so recently, I actually can’t imagine better timing for it. Though it seems like a funny thing to think is positive: to go through something so difficult and dramatic immediately before a week-long camp where you’re supposed to be having fun, going into SUNIA with the mindset of self-reflection really enhanced my experience. Not only did I have fun and learn about world issues, I also learned a lot about myself. At nights and during discussions, I would often take that time to think about the repercussions of what had happened on my life, and what I can learn about myself based on my treatment of it. Even just getting out of the city and enjoying nature was helpful, but the kindness and genuine goodwill of everyone present at camp was what elevated my experience even more. Most of the activities at SUNIA are kept secret so that every year, new Sunians can enjoy the same element of surprise that those who did the came 60 years ago did, and we didn’t know half the what an activity was going to be about. While this took some getting used to (it was all very don’t ask, don’t tell) I definitely appreciated everything we did more when I didn’t know it was coming. Upon deeper reflection, the multitude of surprises and changes made me realize that abrupt changes aren’t necessarily bad things; if you learn to embrace and face the change, you can end up enjoying yourself so much more.

One of the key moments in my journey of clarity and self-discovery came on Wednesday. I had been feeling anxious all day, but as I hiked up Mount Baldy with Danielle and one of our UN speakers, Jacky, all of my unhappiness dissolved. We sang our way up the mountain and after we had made our way down, I realized that I had felt genuinely happy for the first time in a while. The combined factors of song, activity, nature, and strengthening bonds with amazing human beings reminded me that no matter what, I will always have those things in my life, and to not worry about the things bothering me. Later that night, we performed a SUNIA tradition that finalized my resolve to forget my worries. Though I can’t reveal what it was because it truly was an amazing surprise, I was so incredibly humbled by the activity. I had been so focused on my own problems that I had lost sight of the bigger picture. I was so upset at my situation when in fact, I am actually so incredibly lucky to have that kind of problem in my life. The activity put things into perspective, and I know that in the future when I do run into problems in my life that makes me feel unfortunate or unhappy, I will always remember to look at the bigger picture and to realize my privilege.

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Top of the mountain with Jacky and Danielle

I went into Thursday with a much clearer mind to say the least, and I experienced one of the happiest moments in my life that day. Though it was a low-key and relaxed day activity-wise, the things we did were so much fun. I fear revealing too much and because of that, I don’t want to say any more than this: sometimes you must let go to experience happiness. We did an activity that saw us release all of our inhibitions and instincts and just go for it, and when we did, we experienced utter joy. I didn’t realize how pertinent that idea was to my situation until recently, but what I came to realize from that was that when you let go of any negative feelings you have and continue on with your life, you will be truly happy.

I went through a lot of very high highs and very low lows at SUNIA, but at the end of the day, I came back feeling a perfect balance of both. Rather than only focusing on the negatives of my situation, I was able to think about the bigger picture. It takes time to mend, and I accept that I am still on the journey to being completely okay again. But that’s also okay. Being at SUNIA helped me realize things that would’ve taken me much longer to realize on my own, and set me up to heal in a way that was positive. Everything at SUNIA was designed to be a lesson, and I am so grateful for that because I was able to learn so much. But going into SUNIA in the circumstances I was in taught me even more about myself and life in general. I learned things that week that I don’t ever want to forget.

I really have to thank everyone I met at SUNIA; they were able to teach me so much, and reminded me of the importance genuine human connections. In other words, as cliche as it is, friendship. A special thanks to my Youth Are Awesome friends at SUNIA, Danielle and Richard, who consistently kept me company throughout the week (and Christiana!). To my cabin mates, who supported and understood me (SNUG <3). To the councilors, who were enthusiastic even when I found it hard to be and made everyone’s experience what it was. To the Goldeye staff, who put up with finding cups and dinner knives behind couches and our rowdiness. And finally, thanks to Jacky and Matthias from the UN, who taught me so much about bureaucracy and life, and helped me see beyond my situation now. I really am lucky.

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Falling with YAA: Changing of Seasons, minds and hearts

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Green Leaf Fluttering in Wind on Microsoft               jealousy, guilt, healing, 
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yellow  ☀           cheerful, happy, irresponsible, unstable
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orange  Maple Leaf on Google          courageous, confident, ignorant
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red     Maple Leaf on Twitter                  loving, energetic, powerful, dangerous, angry
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        trees 1    In parallel to the fleeting feelings and emotions that we humans experience, leaves in the season of Autumn change in an abstract and varying  manner.  These constantly changing emotions which engulf us are actively shaped by our ever-evolving life situations and the ever-changing people within them. This change that is inevitable in our lives, sometimes good, sometimes bad, often leaves in its trail altered perspectives and people.  I myself can attest to this, for the me who is writing this now, about to enter Grade 12, is much different than the me who finished grade 11 two months ago.
         Change often forces it’s way into our lives, leaving us no choice but to accept it. What inspired me to write about change is the fact that right now is when I would say the first major change of it’s type is happening in my life:
         It’s Autumn, which means that the close friends who we’ve made in the grade above us are now leaving Calgary to begin their lives in Unviersities around the world. Earth Globe Europe-Africa on Apple
          Although this change-leaving one’s home to pursue one’s future- happens on a yearly basis and is a part of life, I found that I struggled for a while to accept it.  The idea that I would no longer be seeing those familiar faces; that I would no longer be able to laugh and talk to many of my role models on a regular basis; made me quite sad. Along the same lines, there is also the intimidating idea that entering grade 12, I will be in the shoes of my older friends- soon, I too will be one of the many applying for universities and graduating(hopefully)- another pretty big transition in life.  Thankfully, this summer I’ve learned much about change, embracing it, life, and myself.  I’ve learned to welcome instead of  reject change. Alas, As I write this post, although I will miss those close to me who are leaving, more and more I am welcoming what I’ve realized is a simultanious blessing and curse; change.

       One of the many things I’ve learned this summer that has helped me to embrace this change is that as quickly as people walk out of your life, new people walk in.  During an especially difficult patch of time where I was still learning to accept change, Hui Wen and I took our perfectly timed trip to

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Hui Wen, myself, and our wise friend Jacky atop of one of the most beautiful places in the world, Mount Baldy.

SUNIA (watch out for our follow-up blogs!), which turned out to be one of the best weeks of both of our summers. Black Sun With Rays on Emoji One  Although every single new friend we made had so much insight to give in the short amount of time we spent together, Hui Wen and I were particularly privileged to befriend someone from the UN, Jacky Tong.  Being exposed to so many different life situations and copious change of all degrees, Jacky offered Hui Wen and I priceless insight into countless topics, especially that of change.

Let us begin with a story from Ancient China which Jacky passed on: Scroll on emojidex

The Lost Horse.

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A man who lived on the northern frontier of China was skilled in interpreting events. One day for no reason, his horse ran away to the nomads across the border. Everyone tried to console him, but his father said, “What makes you so sure this isn’t a blessing?” Some months later his horse returned, bringing a splendid nomad stallion. Everyone congratulated him, but his father said, “What makes you so sure this isn’t a disaster?” Their household was richer by a fine horse, which the son loved to ride. One day he fell and broke his hip. Everyone tried to console him, but his father said, “What makes you so sure this isn’t a blessing?”

A year later the nomads came in force across the border, and every able-bodied man took his bow and went into battle. The Chinese frontiersmen lost nine of every ten men. Only because the son was lame did father and son survive to take care of each other.

ending note: ” blessing turns to disaster, and disaster to blessing: the changes have no end, nor can the mystery be fathomed.
So, change is mysterious. One cannot say for sure if it’s a blessing in disguise or the opposite. Or, maybe we can also say, change itself is neither good nor bad. It’s simply an event. So, we just have to accept it.”
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      The words of this story ring true.  Although it’s impossible to know in and near the moment of change, oftentimes the change leads to bigger and better things down the road. (example): although I value and miss my now-University friends, as I know that maintaining friendships long-distance can be tough, I am excited to have room to form new relationships in my life) Almost always, it is while the change is occurring that we endure the brute of the struggle of acceptance (if the change isn’t something you favour).  However, just remember that years, or maybe even months from the now, you will reflect and be grateful for these experiences life throws at you, which only add to your life bank of knowlege.  Through every change in one’s life comes a new experience, and from that new experience is a lesson that can be learned. Scroll on Apple
         One of the life lessons I’ve learned early on is that rarely anything goes as planned, just another reason to embrace change.  When I first began high school, I meticulously planned out every detail of my life.  However, I’m happy to say that nothing went the way I thought it would, and I wouldn’t change anything.  After all, as Jason Mraz sings,
    We must live some and learn some. I find that the spontaneity of life is part of what makes it so exciting.  Already, I appreciate the unexpected, and after reflection I am now able to  appreciate the changes this summer which have altered my perspective in life on, well, change. Accepting that change is life and there will always be pros and cons- for example, people leave to live their lives and go to amazing universities (including myself eventually), but I get to spend one more year with a bunch of other amazing people (some who I haven’t even met)– has allowed me to not only accept change, but begin to embrace it.
       Change is inevitable, and more times than others we have no way of controlling things that are meant to be surprises, good or bad.  So why fight it? Instead of fighting what arrives naturally, embrace it and make the best out of your situation- find the silver lining, there’s one on every cloud.  Cloud on LG
 For myself and many others I’m sure who have experienced change this summer, the changing of leaves in Autumn not only marks the changing of seasons, but the changing of how we view change and even the changing of our mindsets. (whew, that’s a lot of “change” in one sentence) And who knows- Summertime is beautiful, but Autumn and the winter which follows are equally so.  Although fond memories have been made with my departing friends, they are now stashed away, and I have no doubt in my mind that this final year of high school will create many, many more.  Of course, I have a pretty clear vision of what my Grade 12 year is going to look like- but what’s even clearer in my mind is the knowledge that things will 99.9% not go as expected-they’ll go better.  I suspect that this year will be the year of the most change for me, as it’s already started.  But now I feel way more ready than at the end of grade 11, and I look forward to the excitement that change will bring, and I look forward to not only simply accepting it, but embracing it.
After all, if you think about it, in life is there really a more constant constant than that of change?
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Calgary Pride 2016

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Summer is almost over (sniff), but if you’re looking for something to do in these last couple of weeks, why not take part in Calgary Pride 2016? This year marks Calgary’s 26th annual festival, running from August 26th (today!) to September 5th.

This festival is presented by ATB, through an organization called Calgary Pride, a not-for-profit that promotes equality and celebrates diversity.

I’ve been a supporter of the LGBT movement for a while now, and while I definitely knew about the parades and rallies in places like New York, Chicago, Toronto, etc. but I never knew that Calgary held it’s own pride events until a few days ago, when the event popped up in my Facebook feed.

So why are events like these so important? Sure, part of it’s about paying respect to the past, and to the struggles and the pain that the LGBT community faced (and still faces in certain places of the world), but it’s also about belonging. Pride is not being excluded because of who you love, or who you are.

Pride is a celebration. A celebration of life, of our rights, and love. The idea that love is love, and that it cannot be killed or swept aside. And that’s something that’s always worth celebrating.

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During the festival, there will be various events held throughout the city, like fundraiser bingos, parties, cabarets, screenings, concerts, and of course, a parade on the final day. To see a full list of events click here.

So if you find yourself with nothing to do these next 10 days, why not go out and support Calgary Pride?

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“Love is love” (source)

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Coming Back Better Than Ever

Yeah, we all have a love-hate relationship with our school. We all get scared to go back and want to seem like you’ve come back from summer cooler than ever. New look? Hair? Nails? Nope! School supplies! Yeah. I know it sounds boring but it’s true! Don’t you love it when you roll up into Staples to get some swanky new supplies and making it look fabulous along the way because I do! The new binders that smell still of China and have no marks or scratches (yet). The erasers have no poked holes, no pencil or pen marks or weird “yes or no” games made out of them; just pure sweet supplies. We all know by the end of the year you have no pencils, have lost just about all your supplies somehow and everything is just trash! No way you’re using it next year especially if you’re trying to impress.

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I’m not saying it’s all rainbows and sunshine because there are a lot of downsides. For instance, back to school clothing sales. Yup, it all seems jolly well until you see the perfect designer denim skinny jeans with a little bit of distress that you cannot live without. Your dreams automatically crushed by the fact that 1) it’s really expensive, 2) not on sale, and 3) your mom won’t buy it for you because the jeans on sale are good enough. But you can’t walk into a new year of school with your clothes screaming “good enough!” you need fabulous, perfect, designer! Just like the jeans you saw at the mall but at the end of the day, it’s not the clothes you wear on your back, or the brand new kitten pencil case you walk around with because in 20 years from now these clothes won’t fit you and you won’t need the messed up eraser. It’s what matters in your brain so use your school year wisely and peace out recruits! =3  <3

 

“Not everything that counts can be counted, and not everything that can be counted counts” ~Albert Einstein~

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Artist Spotlight: Vivek Shraya

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As a writer, poet, singer, filmmaker, and visual composer, Toronto based artist Vivek Shraya has been generating a continuous flow of creative content for about 22 years. Her numerous and multimedia works have been critically acclaimed and recognized by institutions like The Globe and Mail, The Huffington Post, the CBC, and The National Post. Shraya is a three time Lambda Literary Award finalist, a 2015 Toronto Arts Foundation Emerging Artist Award finalist, and a 2015 recipient of the Writers’ Trust of Canada’s Dayne Ogilvie Prize Honour of Distinction. In addition to her widely successful artistic endeavours, Vivek currently works as a positive space coordinator and human rights advisor at George Brown College where she provides LGBTQ+ diversity training for college faculty and students and is at the helm of all queer/trans programming on campus. Her large array of boundary pushing work has also led her to becoming quite the positive queer role model. In fact, just last month, Shraya was named named one of Pride Toronto’s Grand Marshals. With all of these things in mind, I think Shraya is more than deserving of this weeks artist spotlight. Her multitude of artistic work and dedication to bringing about LGBTQ+ awareness as well as South Asian diversity constantly inspires me. Therefore, I’d like to share with you some of Vivek’s past as well as upcoming projects to paint a clearer picture of her work:

SHE OF THE MOUNTAINS

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Released in 2014, She of the Mountains is a contemporary 2 perspective narrative that tells a unique love story using elements and principles of Hindu mythology to examine and follow the intricacies of loving relationships. Poetic and transcendent, the book explores the intersection of love without labels, spirituality, and the inquiry of identity. Included as one of The Globe and Mail’s Best Books of 2014, Shraya’s debut novel also features 16 full-page colour illustrations by Montreal artist Raymond Biesinger.

 TRISHA

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Trisha is an 18 photo visual essay created by Shraya to express her admiration towards her mother as well as examine themes of misogyny, sense of self, feminism, and her own journey as a recently transitioned trans woman of an Indian background. The series features 9 vintage photos of Vivek’s mother in her twenties, newly married and recently immigrated to Alberta from India, as well as 9 more photos in which Vivek recreated her mother’s likeness in her own way, expressing that she sees so much of her mother in herself, and yet she is not her, and “[she] doesn’t have to be” but rather she gets “to be something new”. The beautiful and light-hearted imagery paired with Shraya’s powerful and personal words make for a truly moving piece. The name of the project stems from the name Vivek’s mom would have given her if she was biologically born a girl. You can view the full visual essay here.

 TOO ATTACHED

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Too Attached is an R&B, electronica, and soul music duo consisting of siblings Shamik and Vivek Shraya. While of course Vivek has previously released several solo EPs and music collections, when she combines her soulful vocals with her younger brother’s expert beatboxing and music producing skills to cover timeless samples by Missy Elliott and The Rascals, the finished product is beyond amazing. With the two siblings living on opposite coasts of Canada, most of their work is curated virtually, just further strengthening their unmistakeable musical chemistry. In addition to several covers, the pair recently also released their debut record, Bronze. Too Attached will also be opening for Tegan and Sara’s during the Canadian installment of their Love You to Death tour, meaning Vivek and Shamik will be performing right here at Calgary’s very own BMO Center this coming October!

 THE BOY AND THE BINDI

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Set to release this fall, The Boy and the Bindi is an upcoming children’s picture book written by Vivek Shraya and illustrated by Rajni Perera. The story follows a young Indian boy’s admiration for his mother’s bindi, a symbolic dot traditionally worn on the forehead by many South Asian women. Indulging in his curiosity, the mother teaches her son the cultural and spiritual significance of the little dot, allowing him to wear it  and express his own individuality through a unique display of culture. Not finding much cultural diversity in picture books while growing up as a queer Indian individual, Vivek wrote this book to try and promote a more inclusive and comprehensive culture within children’s books.

Overall, although this is only a tiny sample of Vivek’s amazing and extensive portfolio of art, writing, film, and music, I think it’s definitely enough to get hooked on to her amazing and inspiring artistic work. I hope you enjoyed experiencing something perhaps a little different and new. Please be sure to check out Vivek’s website if you’re interested or wish to learn more about any of her projects! Until the next spotlight, remember to keep an open mind and always be open to new forms of art and expression!

 

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What is The Olympic Spirit? (Part 1)

With the 2016 Rio de Janeiro Olympics having drawn to a close, there comes a time to look back on and reflect on the historic games. Not only did Canadian athletes, especially the women, far exceed expectations, improve on the medal count achieved in London 2012, partake in the greatest bromance of the century, but also showed incredible class in the face of adversity. Despite the impressive camaraderie from athletes from all four corners of the world, there was an astounding amount of poor sportsmanship from athletes, coaches and spectators alike. I understand that everyone is human and makes mistakes and poor choices, but I do not believe that there is any excuse for unsportsmanlike conduct, especially on a stage as high-profile and influential as the Olympics.

This has lead me to the question, “What exactly is the Olympic Spirit? What sets the Olympics apart from other international events?”

Before I get into that, I would like to revisit certain events that struck a sour chord with me personally. These are all examples of what I believe goes against the purpose and yes, the spirit of the Olympic Games as a cultural and athletic institution.


Renaud Lavillenie vs. The Crowd: An all-around lack of poise and class

French pole vaulter and current world record holder Renaud Lavillenie was at the center of controversy following his silver medal performance. During the competition, the Frenchman’s demeanour could only have been described as being cocky, arrogant and overly defensive. As I watched him and his fellow pole vaulters compete, it was not his behaviour during the event that took me aback, but afterwards. While gold and bronze medallists Thiago Braz da Silva and Sam Kendricks were celebrating, Lavillenie looked indignant in spite of a silver medal and failed to show any national pride, not taking a lap and even going as far as to wipe his face with the French flag. It must also be stated that the Brazilian crowd was far less than cordial, booing Lavillenie not only while he was competing, but as he stood on the podium to receive his medal, bringing him to tears. This is not to say that Lavillenie was the picture of class, but no athlete deserves to be treated with such disrespect by the crowd, regardless of the situation, especially during a medal presentation. After the incident at the medal ceremony, Lavillenie compared the way that he was treated to that of Jesse Owens, the African American runner who competed in the 1936 Olympics held in Nazi Germany. He has since apologized for his comments, but they have still left a bitter taste in the mouths of fans.

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Mongolian Coaches Put on Quite a Show

Following a controversial last-minute call that lost Mongolian wrestler Ganzorigiin Mandakhnaran a bronze medal, his coaches did something that one would have expected: they stripped down to their skivvies on the edge of the ring, and later had to be escorted out of the venue by police. It was understandable that they were frustrated, even furious, but there really is no excuse for such an, uhh, display. Even Mandakhnaran himself was visibly upset, but he did not take out his anger on anyone, instead victimizing the mat. After he gathered himself up, he went and congratulated his opponent in an admirable show of sportsmanship. Unfortunately, the same could not have been said for his coaches. Thank goodness that they were wearing good underwear, otherwise the crowd may have gotten an even more extensive view.

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Russian Whistleblowers Living on the Run

This is not an event specific to the games themselves, but rather the result of the culmination of several incidents. Yulia and Vitaliy Stepanov, who are best known for revealing the Russia’s state-sponsored doping program to the world, have been living in the US since 2014 out of fear for their lives. After being treated like traitors and outsiders in their own country, they elected to make the move in order to protect themselves and their young son. While the games were going on, Yulia Stepanova, who is an Olympic 800m track specialist, confirmed reports that her ADAMS account (an account that the World Anti-Doping Agency [WADA] uses to locate athletes in order to facilitate random drug testing) was hacked, forcing her and her husband to move yet again. Stepanova originally applied to compete in Rio under a neutral flag, but this hope was extinguished when the IOC banned all Russian athletes with a history of doping from competing. It is just so astonishing to me the extent to which a nation will go to defend illegal activity and how badly those who try to encourage honesty and fairness in sport are slandered and threatened.

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(Dis)honourable Mentions

  1. Ryan Lochte lies about being held at gunpoint
  2. Yulia Efimova booed at Olympic swimming events after controversial doping ruling
  3. Egyptian Judo athlete Islam el Shehaby sent home after refusing to shake hands with opponent

In Part 2, I will explore the greatest successes of Rio 2016 in promoting what I believe the Olympic Spirit encompasses, from Canadian athletes to those from beyond our borders.

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What I’ve learned being a “trash talker”

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Ahhh how wonderful it is to be caught up in a summer daze. The sun’s out, we’re all happy, avoiding any mention of back-to-school, and all is good. And if you’re not hitting up the beaches, or vacationing in exotic places, there’s always the option of staying closer to home and attending some of the great festivals in Calgary!

Yes, with summer being festival season, and being a Youth Central volunteer, I’ve had the fortune of attending several of these festivals and events to volunteer. A little less fortunately though, a majority of the time, I have been stuck with the oh-so-glamorous task of “trash-talking”.

Now, before you freak out, no, I have not been going around at events talking smack to random attendees. Green team, (or “trash-talking”, as they coined our task) is basically when us volunteers stand beside trash stations and direct trash into three main streams: Waste, Compost, and Refundables (and under certain groups, Mixed Recycling as well). The main purpose is to divert unnecessary waste from the landfill, ultimately reducing carbon emissions, and saving the planet (yay!). And this all sounds fine and dandy, but unfortunately, we need someone to be there to actually make it happen, which is just **great fun**. Standing beside the trash for upwards of 12 hours, like a broken record saying “I can help you compost that”? Sign me up!

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What our trash stations looked like. (source)

So this summer, I’ve done this task at several different events, such as the Calgary Stampede, Fiestival, and this past weekend, Taste of Calgary. And while I have gone home with very sore legs and many mosquito bites, green team has a few lessons to teach. So here is What I’ve learned while being a “Trash Talker”

It's not just food waste that's compostable

I originally thought that only things like banana peels and apple cores could be composted. And although this is true in a home setting, in commercial compost facilities, the range of compostable items is actually quite surprising. Many people at these events were very surprised that all food waste (including bones), napkins, and even some (plant-based) plastics were all compost! But it was really interesting to inform so many people about all the things that were compostable. And I must admit that it was quite satisfying to hear someone complain that “plastic wasn’t compostable”, and then be able to swoop in and say that actually, it was made out of a plant-based material, and that it does, in fact, go in the compost.

At times, you get a little too invested

Yes, after over 70 ish hours of doing this same task, trying to help the environment, it definitely starts to have an impact on your own morals and values. Now, I’m definitely more aware of all the waste that humans generate, and I’m alot more appreciative of corporations who do make the effort to have a more environmentally friendly company. However, this has raised alot of frustrations with various companies. For example, I was at Village Ice Cream the other day, coincidentally with some other volunteers who had done some of these Green Team projects with me, and we were pleased to discover that the ice cream cups claimed to be “100% compostable”, as were the napkins. However, there wasn’t even a compost bin in the store! They’re missing a very crucial step in the environmental initiative, by giving the ability to compost the cups, but not the opportunity. Also, at Taste of Calgary, we were initially told that David’s Tea cups were made out of a mixed material that meant it had to go in waste. Now even though I used to love David’s Tea, I suddenly felt really disappointed, and for a few days, I really disliked the company, and refused to buy anything from their booth. It was only on Sunday, when we were informed that there was a misunderstanding, and that their cups were compostable, that I regained my respect for them.

Some people just don't care

Yes, for every nice, wonderful person who actually cared about the initiative, unfortunately, there was another, less-nice, not-so-wonderful person who honestly just didn’t give a crap. But that’s just the reality of volunteering at events with lots of people, there are always gonna be rude people. My personal favourites include the man who waited until I said “Hi, that’s actually gonna go in compost over here!”, dumped his fries in the refundables bin (why?!), looked at me straight in the eye, smirked, and mockingly said “Too late” before walking away. Also, the woman in the red cap trying to take the bottles and cans (for her own profit), who immediately started aggressively yelling “Don’t you f***ing say a word to me” when we tried to tell her that no-one was actually allowed to take those refundables. Last but not least, the woman who looked at me like I was Hitler after I told her that her food was compostable, said “NO”, as if she felt super offended, and dumped it all in the waste before walking away. Ahh the joys of working with people.

But that's okay, because at the end of the day, you do make an impact

But even at the end of a long day, when your legs are sore, and your mouth is dry, and you don’t ever want to hear the word “compost” again, looking at all the compost and recycling that you helped to divert from the landfill, it makes it worth it. Although it’s not the funnest, these green team type projects are actually really satisfying, because you get to see the tangible results of your work. Sure, the waste we’re diverting is only a tiny fraction of all the waste in the world, and yeah, it’s impossible to suddenly make every container compostable, and eradicate all styrofoam from existence (one can only dream), but nevertheless, we do make an impact. Because making a difference isn’t about suddenly making everything perfect, it’s about making it better, piece by piece.

Look at us Youth Central + Boys and Girls club kids joining forces + being happy about compost! (Source)
Look at us Youth Central + Boys and Girls club kids joining forces + being happy about compost! (Source)

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Dealing With Impending Change

Life is about evolving. Don’t stay in a situation that’s not helping you grow mentally, spiritually, and emotionally.
—  Unknown

I am a creature of habit. This is the simplest way that I could begin to explain how I operate on a day to day basis. I like routine, schedule and order in my life and much of the comfort that I take in my daily living stems from knowing what the day will hold. Summer is, of course, the exception, when I exchange waking up at exactly 7:12 every morning for flexibility and the freedom to do whatever I please on my own time. That said, come September 1st, I will fall back into the routine that I’ve held dear for years. This routine goes through its changes every year, growing with my school schedule, extracurriculars, work and social life. It may change, but in the end, it is always more or less the same in the end.

This year, however, marks the end of what has been a very stable phase of my youth. After the end of the school year, the routine that I’ve come to know and love as well as all of the familiar places that make it what it is will fade away and hail in a new era in my life. I will be packing my bags and leaving for university, the first stepping stone to “the real world.” It isn’t the notion of moving away from home or facing new academic and social challenges that makes me nervous, but the prospect of having to rebuild the routine that I have meticulously crafted over the course of the last decade.

Change is a great and horrible thing, and people love it or hate it at the same time. Without change, however, you just don’t move.
— Marc Jacobs

No longer will I be waking up in the same bed to walk down the same stairs to the same kitchen to make myself a bagel with cream cheese. I won’t be getting into my car to drive down the same roads to the same school to set myself up to work for the day in the same desk in the same room. I won’t be coming home from work at the same late hour to go to bed and wake up the next morning to do it all over again. Up until this point, all of the change in my life has been subtle and has managed to exist within the framework of what I already knew. Moving away poses all new challenges, most notably having to find routine in an unfamiliar place. It should be said that I am an adaptable person and that I am up for any challenge that the world throws at me. This is different insofar as it flips everything I’ve established as my norm on its head and it is not something that I have ever had to deal with before.

If you want something new, you have to stop doing something old.
—  Peter F. Drucker

All of this said, I’m excited in a way that I can only describe as being ever so slightly morbid. I’m ready to move on with my life, even if that means that I have to tear down much of what I’ve constructed as my daily reality. I want to savour this last year of general normalcy but at the same time, I know that its end iscoming soon. Thus, I am left with a decision. Do I enjoy what time I have left with my little universe and prepare to leave it cold turkey, or do I start making small, consistent changes to slowly dismantle my sense of normal to help ease into the transition?

These are questions that I need to start answering before long and that will require me to think in a way that I’ve never had to before. A new adventure awaits me and now it’s my task to decide how I’m going to approach it. I’m truly looking forward to being able to take control of how I live my life in every aspect although it’s somewhat scary when I think about all that it entails. Once I can learn to accept that it means leaving my comfort zone and sailing out into uncharted waters, I can begin to embrace the change and the new sense of routine and normalcy that it will bring with it.

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A Retrospective: My Time on Youth Are Awesome

Why do we need writers?

Because: Writing can help yourself, others around you and the world at large.

That was the opening line of my first ever blog post on Youth Are AwesomeWhy do we need writers?  Published on March 26, 2014, over two years ago, it marked the start of a long journey of being a writer for Youth Are Awesome. The idea that writing is a way of helping myself, those around me and the world at large has certainly come true in many ways. Now as I approach my final month of summer before I head off to university, I would like to take the time to reflect on my experiences with this blog. In other words, before I open a new and exciting chapter in my life, I want to appreciate and put a nice conclusion on this chapter of my life.

Who am I

Life is a continuous journey of finding one’s self, the more you know about who you are, the more confident you are to proclaim: This is who I am and I’m proud of it. Only then will the insults and doubts fade away; from that shell emerges an individual of boundless potential.

– From Who Are You? How Can I Help You Find Out?

Helping Myself

I started writing for this blog when I was in Grade 10 and a lot has happened since then. Writing has been a way for me to document my journey as a young adult. But more so than just documenting my life, writing has actively helped me to develop my identity. Like all high school students, I was (and to a certain extent, still am) plagued with uncertainty about who I am and what I want in life. When faced with these feelings, I would put pen to paper and express how I was feeling at that time. It’s a cathartic experience, but it also allows me to organize my thoughts and make sense of it all. At the end of any article, I feel like I am one step closer to understanding myself.

Beyond the aspect of writing, Youth Are Awesome has allowed me to meet so many awesome youth (what an aptly named blogging platform). Seriously though, throughout my time on YAA, I have had the chance to connect with so many different people. In this process, I feel like I have broadened my worldview and network. I know some who have just finished their first year of university and others who are still trekking through high school. With diverse personalities and talents, I feel proud to be part of such a group. Writing can be a very isolated activity – just a person sitting alone, clacking away on their keyboard – but YAA provides a community aspect that I have enjoyed and grown from a lot.

Helping Others

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What do you want to be when you grow up?

I’m sure we’ve all heard this question before. How does it make you feel? It makes me feel uncomfortable and pressured to make a decision. It’s something that we may ask young children just for fun. You’re amused by their cute answers of: “I want to be a firefighter” or “I want to be an astronaut.” Yet, this question will continue to be posed as you grow up, until it reaches a point where people expect serious answers in return.

I have written about the often asked question of what do you want to be when they grow up, the desire to return to the simplicity of childhood, and what is the purpose of life? These are big topics. However, other youth have pondered these same topics that I have – whether they have expressed it publicly is a different matter. While I write these articles to help myself wrap my head around these issues, I also write with other youth in mind. I know that they have also worried about these things and I hope that they are able to relate to my writing:

“There are the moments when a particular sentence or passage touches you because it’s said in a way that you see yourself in those words. As a writer, that’s powerful to understand that our writing had an impact on someone else. After all, it’s magical how these lines and scribbles called writing can evoke feelings when combined properly.”

-From How Do Writers Feel When People Read Their Writing?

A message about depression

I feel like my writing has been able to help others. The example that always comes to mind is my article about depression. The process of writing A Message About Depression was different from all of my articles up to that point. As someone who has never had clinical depression, but had friends who had, I really wanted to tackle this topic and gain a better understanding of it.

I spent many hours doing research, but a key moment was when I decided to have a long talk with my friends about their experience with depression. Their insights made their way into my article, but it also allowed me to understand them on a deeper level. By the end of the article, I probably spent upwards of 20 hours researching, writing and compiling resources. It was difficult because I invested myself so much time and emotion into it, but to date, it is the one of the articles I’m most proud of.

Depression is a topic that is often stigmatized and I was glad to play a small part in breaking the misconceptions around this condition. After the post was published, I vividly remember my friends telling me about how much it meant to them that they got to take part in the creation of the article. Their personal experiences were now able to help others and I acted as a catalyst for that. Writing has been able to impact those close to me, but I’ve found that has also left a mark on the greater community.

Helping the World at Large

 

Photo Courtesy of Christina + Nathan Photography
Photo Courtesy of Christina + Nathan Photography

Homelessness.

My perspective on this social issue continues to change and broaden as time goes on. I feel like for a long time, I’ve been close-minded about it and to some extent, this still holds true today. That’s why I’m writing this post, to better educate myself and to inform readers about the complexities that surround this topic. The hope is that the more we know, the more understanding and empathetic we can be.

From What Is Homelessness? Part 1 – The Drop-In Center

While I am a writer for YAA, I am also an active volunteer around the city. These two passions overlapped and led to me writing an article about The Drop-In Center (DI), a homeless shelter in Calgary. When I went to volunteer that day, I helped to prepare bagged lunches that the residents would take with them during their day. Afterwards, we were given a tour by a DI staff of the whole building, top to bottom. Even though I have passed the building countless times, I never truly appreciated all the work that is being done there each and every day. Each floor of the building provided a different service and I highlighted my entire journey in my article.

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What surprised me the most about this article was the response that it got. At the time of writing, I didn’t think it was anything special – I just wanted to share my experience volunteering there and my newfound perspective on the topic of homelessness. However, shortly after the article was published, multiple staff from the DI contacted me and we chatted about my article. Feedback was positive and they were glad that someone talked about all of the work that they did. It was the first time that I really felt like my writing impacted the greater community. It’s a great feeling that I hope to experience again someday.

Endings Are New Beginnings

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Time passes. Things change. Life goes on.

My time with Youth Are Awesome has been a big part of my life for the past while. I appreciate all of the experiences I have had and I am not too sad to be leaving the program. After all, endings are just new beginnings. University will be the next big chapter in my life, filled with its own challenges and opportunities for me to grow as a person. One day, this will just be a distant memory, because life goes on. Nothing is permanent. I started in 2014, but this blog has been running since June 2009. Many bloggers have come and gone and now it’s my turn. I hope that new writers continue to find their voice on this platform and discover what writing means to them. Why do we need writers? Because writing can help yourself, others around you and the world at large.