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TV Recommendation – House of Cards

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Honestly, I have to say that I feel bad for the writers of House of Cards. For a show that has built its reputation around political intrigue, corruption, and in general just a lot of sketchy happenings in the White House, the current political climate in the United States probably means that no matter what material the writers can come up with for future seasons, they won’t really be able to outdo what is actually happening in reality.

But I digress. This is not going to be a political post; there have been enough of those plastering practically every form of media for the past year. Rather, I want to draw your attention to a show that, despite reality, still provides an extremely entertaining narrative as to the lives that politicians lead. Even after five seasons, the show is still going strong, the story is still fascinating and keeps you at the edge of your seat, and is able to make politics seem very interesting for the average Netflix binger. Today, that may not be an incredible feat (controversial political news is being pumped out practically every week), but five years ago when the show first started, believe me, that achievement broke new ground.

What’s it about?

Set in Washington, DC, the series follows the story of Democratic congressman Francis “Frank” Underwood and his quest to gain power and influence within the United States political system. After being denied an appointment to Secretary of State by the newly elected President (despite this appointment having been previously agreed upon in the campaign process), Frank begins formulating a plan behind the President’s back to gain power for himself.

What follows is a long process of deceit, blackmail, betrayal, and manipulation as Frank pursues his goal. Frank’s wife Claire, who runs a NGO (non-governmental organization) for global clean water, aids him in his quest, and both Underwoods demonstrate their willingness for using less-than-legal means to gain what they seek. Murder, cover-ups, and scandals are far from foreign concepts in this series, which gives a unique spin to American politics, which can be considered “tumultuous” at times, but never quite so blatantly corrupt as the actions taken by Frank and Claire Underwood. Yet that is what makes this show so interesting.

Why is it good?

There is a certain intrigue that comes from watching something crash and burn. It may not be very nice to look at, but at the same time, it seems almost impossible to look away. You would almost be stunned with a kind of horrible fascination as to what will happen next.

This is the exact kind of feeling that you get while watching House of Cards, but the show is executed in such a way where it still remains nice to look at. The production value, as per all Netflix originals, is fantastic, but beyond that, the story itself is incredibly interesting as well, with the best part being that you don’t have to be interested in politics whatsoever and can still wholly enjoy this show.

There are some things that remain tough to watch, however. Frank’s actions in the series are horrible. He does terrible things, to the point where they would probably define him as a terrible person. Claire does the same. However, despite this, you can’t help but still cheer for Frank, at least a little bit, as you see his plans unfold and succeed. I think a lot of this can be attributed to the fantastic acting done by Kevin Spacey and Robin Wright, who play Frank and Claire Underwood respectively. They are able to bring humanity to their characters which are, most people would agree, essentially heartless, and that is not something that is easy to do. The show is also excellent with its use of breaking the fourth wall, where often Frank will directly address the camera to explain his innermost thoughts, giving a sort of sinister foreshadowing as to what is to come.

But the reason I say that you will be watching something “crash and burn” is because you will expecting this “crash” from the moment you begin the first episode. The series is called “House of Cards” for a reason: the “house” is not stable, and can be toppled with even a slight gust of wind. In the case of the power that Frank will work to build up, his power will not be stable. When all of his influence is built upon lies, deceit, and manipulation, at some point something will crack, and the entire structure will be left without support and crumble. Frank’s house of cards will crumble.

The series is still ongoing, so clearly that point has not been reached yet, but the idea that every viewer signed on to this eventuality, I believe, is a central reason as to why this show is so good. Like most great stories, there will be a great rise, and then a great fall.

For now, however, we can all enjoy watching Frank formulate his schemes and launch them into action, while we sit back and see how they play out. Sometimes we’ll be shocked, sometimes we’ll have our suspicions confirmed, and yet sometimes we’ll simply say to ourselves, “Wow. That was actually really clever.” Overall, that is why I cannot recommend this show enough.

 

 

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Going Away To College: A Buying and Packing Guide

Moving away for (presumably) the first time… It’s a bit of an intimidating thought, isn’t it? In less than two weeks, I will be among thousands of university and college freshmen moving onto campus in a new city. Am I nervous? Not as much as several of my friends, and I credit much of that to the fact that I compulsively over-prepare. If Santa makes a list and checks it twice, I make about five lists and check them every five minutes, in spite of the fact that I won’t be out of the house for over a week. My shopping has been extensive, and would perhaps even be considered extreme by some. This has certainly not deterred me in any way. I would, therefore, like to present to you some tips and tricks for your own college/dorm shopping and packing journey, whether you’re moving in at the end of the month, or won’t be leaving home for another while.


Before Buying

Consider How Far You’re Travelling

Personally, I am only going to Edmonton, but I have friends who are moving as far away as Halifax. Because of how far each of us is moving, and how we are going to get there, we are each going to have to prepare in a different way. I am driving to campus, so it makes much more sense for me to buy most of my supplies before leaving, as opposed to someone who has to fly across the country. If buying supplies at home isn’t a viable option, you can wait until you arrive at your destination before shopping. Additionally, stores like Bed Bath & Beyond have programs where you do your shopping at home, and they will hold your purchase for pickup at the location closest to your campus.

Consider Your Space

Every school does dorms differently, and as a first-year student, chances are that you’re going to be living in one. Do you have a roommate? Do you have a private or shared bathroom? Does your bed have drawers, and/or do you have the option to loft it? If you’re in a suite or apartment-style residence or are living off-campus, this might not be as much of a consideration, because you’re naturally going to have a little bit more space to work with. If you’re living in a dorm room glorified broom closet, using your space as efficiently as possible is essential. For some, rolling drawer carts or wire shelving are a good option to optimize space, but for others, maybe not.

Consider University/Landlord Rules

Chances are, the rules governing what you can and cannot bring with you to your school are different than the ones for your friend’s school. For example, my school (University of Alberta) allows me to bring a mini fridge, but no heating appliances (i.e. kettle, microwave, hot plate). In the first year residences at the University of Calgary, however, residents may not bring mini fridges. Therefore, it’s important to check up on what may or may not be allowed in your dorm or housing unit. The same goes for off-campus apartments or other rental units.

 

Packing and Moving

A few quick tips:

  • Make a list of everything you need to bring. Google Sheets is great for this because you can access it on any device. Colour coding and organizing the list by category is also a good idea. When you’re sure that you have everything written down on the list, print it out so that you can use it as a reference when you’re packing and unpacking, and so that you can make handwritten changes as needed. If you’re not sure where to start, Pinterest has a ton of great packing lists that you can use or adapt to your own needs.
  • Label your boxes with not only their contents or what room/area they go in, but with your name and unit/apartment number (if you know it).
  • To pack clothes that are on hangers, leave them on the hangers, bundle them, and wrap them in garbage bags for easy transportation. If you’re packing bulky items on hangers like sweaters or winter coats, you can also use Ziploc Space Bags designed for hanging clothing.
  • Just use Ziploc Space Bags or something similar for packing clothes in general. They help your clothes take up less space in transit, making packing a whole lot easier.
  • Pack an overnight bag with all of your essentials, pajamas, and a change of clothes. Depending on what time of day you move in (for example, I don’t move in until mid afternoon), you may not have time to get everything unpacked until the next day, so you don’t want to be rummaging through boxes and bins trying to find your toothbrush.

Happy packing!

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Transitioning to a Big New Chapter

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University.

It’s the next step for many of us after primary and secondary school. University is the goal for many of us. I finally reached it, after many years, along with millions of other students this year and the years before. This period can be exciting and overwhelming at the same time.  During high school there were days that I couldn’t have waited to get out of those four walls. Then there are some days like today, where I asked myself will I be able to do it, what if I’m not cut out for it? I still tend to have panic attacks occasionally about going to university, although it’s starting in three weeks.

I can’t speak for everyone but I have been looking forward to university, a lot. Especially “freshers” week where everyone gets to meet everyone and have a good time all week. I think going into university, this big transition shouldn’t be worried about, rather celebrated! We’ve made it this far, we don’t have much further to go, its just more school and then our jobs and thats all we need to see right now. I think if we look too much into the future, we won’t be able to enjoy what we have now and what we have coming for us in university — the learning, the fun, the parties,  the mistakes we are yet to make, we must look forward to those most of all. We finally get to learn what we wish to, subjects we always have enjoyed and loved, I think that is the biggest reward of all.

It’s intense — what happens in the one year and summer that passes by without us realizing before one of the biggest chapters of our lives. In between maintaining our averages, or upgrading our skills, filling out applications, planning for dances, and sorting the how and where you’re going to live for university, with the anxiety of waiting for the admissions letters and celebrating graduation at the same time studying for the immediate exams, it flies by. Most of my friends this summer spent their time with friends, going to new places, to festivals, just on adventures, and having fun getting lost in the moment. But I spent the summer job hunting, upgrading courses, seeing old friends, celebrating new ones and volunteering for the last time with the Calgary Humane Society.

I guess what I’m trying to say with this article that seems to be all over the place, is take a breather.  I know plenty of you are heading to university, many different ones in a few weeks, so what I am trying to say is just take a breath. Just take the breath and celebrate and just try to enjoy this in between stage where we have no impending homework, or due dates for projects or big exams as scary as diplomas. I think it’s important to right now even if you’re working, or buying stuff or moving in, just take a breather and enjoy it. Because from what I hear, this is the last time we get for just kicking back and relaxing without much stress or any for some.

My Recommended Books List – Part 1

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Today I thought I’d compile my list of favourite fiction books. I’ve done a lot of reading throughout the summer, of all sorts of books, and I think that I’m now able to provide some advice on what books that are most worth your time – and I’ve made sure not to include spoilers! I’ve purposely steered clear of any books that I know to be commonly used in school curriculums, but plenty of recommended books for school are amazing works as well!

1. All The Light We Cannot See

This is an extremely touching story about a French girl who is blind and an orphaned German boy during World War II. They each encounter different problems as the war plays out, with the French girl eventually working to support the French Resistance and the German boy becoming frustrated at how scientific innovations are being used for war. Each of them is blind in their own way – the French girl is physically blind, while the German boy feels that he has been blinded from the positive side of the world due to the negative war rhetoric. It has a very bittersweet ending that further contributes to the overall feeling of the book. A must read for sure.

2. A Game Of Thrones

You knew this was going to be on here. I decided to read this book after watching a couple episodes of HBO’s TV adaptation, and I must say that I am super impressed with the original novel series. There’s an enormous amount of detail poured into this book, that every Game of Thrones fan would enjoy. Upon opening the pages of the book, I was immediately whisked away to the kingdom of Westeros, and I could feel a connection with the setting and characters immediately. Even if you don’t like the Game of Thrones TV show, still give the books a shot – they are amazing in their own respect.

3. The Kite Runner

This is a truly emotional story that incorporates the events that have happened in our real world into a heart-warming fiction story. The Kite Runner is based around a young Afghan boy called Amir and follows events in his life as he grows. His experiences span from periods of relative stability in Afghanistan to Soviet intervention and the refugee influx to Pakistan to the rise of the Taliban. All along the way, he experiences a very close relationship with his friend, Hassan. Amir is unable to prevent violence against Hassan in one scene, which gives him a great amount of guilt. The rest of the story centres around Amir’s attempt to make it up to Hassan.

4. The Circle

This techno style futuristic novel is about an extremely powerful Internet company called The Circle, and the experiences of one employee named Mae who works there. She moves up the ranks of the company fast, and she soon discovers a new project that the company is pursuing: SeeChange, a project where small cameras are placed everywhere in the world for surveillance purposes. Mae embraces the motif of transparency, but many in the story begin to question the motives of The Circle and they begin to attempt to protect their privacy. The conflicts that result are truly nail-biters. In April, the movie The Circle was released, and it had quite a different ending. If you have time for either the movie or the book, make sure that you do go and see/read The Circle in some form!

5. The Hunt For Red October

Last, but certainly not least, is my personal favourite on this list. The Hunt For Red October is the first book written by Tom Clancy in the Jack Ryan series, which is based around the titular character(Jack Ryan) as he works in the CIA during the Cold War. The book is about a Soviet nuclear submarine, named the Red October, which has a crew that wishes to defect to the USA. The book details all of the military and intelligence responses from both the USA and the Soviet Union, as well as the diplomatic processes that were pursued by both countries during this time period. It is one of the most action-packed espionage books I have ever read, and I thoroughly enjoyed the suspense that the book brought to me. With this book, Tom Clancy became my favourite novelist, and I continue to read his trilogy today.

That concludes my list of my favourite fiction books. I’ll post my list of nonfiction books in the next part!

 

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The Science In Memes

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If you’ve been living a rock since 2005, you may not know what a “meme” is. Also, hi! Trump is now our president. Yeah. That actually happened…

A “meme”, defined by Google’s Dictionary is…

…or in other words, everything you see on Facebook and Instagram nowadays. (You have not been on the internet if you have not seen one of these).

In 2017, memes have become more popular than ever, from the wholesome to the downright offensive. There isn’t a day in your life where you haven’t opened up your social media, and seen one of your friends sharing images of some photo which they though was funny. You may laugh, you may cringe, or you may pretend to laugh when in your heart you are really thinking, “My god is that awful, how could anyone laugh at that?” Regardless, you, inexplicably, have faced a meme (and if your reaction to your friends memes is the third one, you may also need new friends…)

According to various Reddit threads, there are approximately infinite memes circulating around the interwebs since its alleged conception in 2000 (may or may not be scientifically accurate). Ranging from the human legend of Chuck Norris, to plethora of “Cash me outside” memes circumventing around Facebook today. The meme has become so popular that there are ACTUAL UNIVERISTY STUDENTS AT STANFORD WHO HAVE WRITTEN PAPERS ON THIS. I’m not joking.

Onkar Dalal, Deepa Mahajan, Ilana Segall and Meghana Vishvanath of Stanford University took the liberty of using various pieces of data found on MemeTracker.com to explore and examine the relative lifetime relevance of a meme across the interwebs. The real purpose of this analysis (besides enjoying many memes) was to discover how news propagates across media platforms, using memes as a springboard for this investigation. Unfortunately, according to their results, the data was far too scattered to accurately pinpoint an average or average range for meme survival. From their conclusion, the researchers have stated that they hope to “examine more memes” for future research. If I ever found a field that I’m truly interested in, this is it: Memeology.

But wait! There’s more! BBC did a 40 minute study into what makes a great meme, using the classic Kermit as an example:

 

…their conclusion? The more notable the content of the meme is, the more popular it becomes. And it’s true! Almost every popular meme comes from a massive origin story, some foundation which the audience basis its enjoyment from. It’s not interesting if your neighbour Doug takes a picture of himself and puts some Comic Sans, but it’s hilarious when you put an image of Donald Trump saying “I will improve the economy” and then putting a BBC article of Donald Trump disbanding all of his economic councils yesterday. (No seriously, all his economic councils were cut off. Oh did you know? Donald Trump is the USA’s president). This is what make memes funny, the “inside” joke that only a certain demographic can relate to. What memes actually do is they trigger a part of your brain, your short-term, long-term, or retentive memory, which supplement the meme with the meaning. Without cognitive knowledge, a meme makes no sense at all, and often leaves some really awkward moments…

And you thought memes were just jokes; they are the pinnacle of science. Educate yourself.

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The Meaning Behind New York Times Bestseller

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When browsing for books at the public library, it’s not uncommon for me to wander into the Teens Fiction Novels section and pick up a book that’s marked with New York Times Bestseller at the top of the front cover. Several years of reading these “bestseller” books later, I only recently came to wonder: what does this label exactly mean?

Many sources simply say that a book requires 9,000 copies to be sold in order to be considered a NYT Bestseller in the first week of release. This seems pretty straightforward, but the ranking system behind the scenes has received heavy critique and sparked great controversy.

There are two said methods to get onto the list:
1. Make individual sales or,
2. Buy your way onto the list

The first method is the way most authors would think to go about this. The deliberate use of the term “individual” sales implies that books sold in bulk are not counted by NYT. So if a certain order of 1,500 copies of a book is made by a company, that sale is not considered. At this stage, the process of making it onto this bestseller list seems uncomplicated but there are a few other unwritten requirements here. At least 10,000 pre-orders of a book should be made; otherwise there’s an unlikely chance of becoming a NYT Bestseller. The why’s of that statement, I’m not too clear on but it most likely shows accounts of heavy marketing and therefore foreseen popularity. Another factor is that ebooks are not counted because they technically aren’t “physical books”. On top of all of that, there are only a few select stores across the US that NYT will count sales from.

Onto the second method. Straight away, you’re probably rethinking the competency of those who’ve called themselves a NYT Bestselling author. A whole level of ethicality comes into view but mind you, buying your way onto the list can be just as difficult as the first method. You need to consider that buying enough copies to make the list can cost upwards of $200,000 and these still have to be individual purchases! An author may hire people to purchase all of the author’s books in a store one at a time.

Either way, these ways still cannot guarantee you a spot on that bestseller list. NYT gets the final say on the rankings and of course, there are plenty of biases. For example, if the author works for the NYT, there’s a higher chance of their book being ranked higher and staying on the list longer. This is only one example, which means that even if a book meets all the criteria for being a NYT bestseller, several other factors can block a book from becoming a NYT bestseller.

We’ve established that getting onto this prestigious list is hard enough, but there’s a major caveat to having that label: once a book becomes a NYT bestseller, it becomes the property of the NYT. Following up, the NYT will not cover marketing so an author will lose a huge percent of their future profits off their book, and will be responsible for advertising it.

All things considered, why aim for this title? It seems incredibly difficult to get and seems to have minimal benefits, so is it worth your time? To a professional writer, being known as a New York Times Bestseller author means better future publisher deals, and after this recognition, individual sales on future books may get you a much faster profit.

Knowing all of this, I give all my respects to the authors who have gotten their books to be listed as a bestseller by the New York Times. The next time you pick up a New York Times Bestseller, think about all the decisions that author had to make to get their book the way as you see it.

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The AI Revolution

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For my entire childhood, I’ve associated the term “Artificial Intelligence” with Wall-E and Star Wars characters. But no longer. AI is not out beyond the horizon anymore, but rather it is a very plausible reality. Countries are flooding AI companies with federal grants. Computing power in our world is doubling every 18 months. In fact, at the end of July, Facebook had to shut down one of its AI experiments because two AIs started communicating to each other in a language that they created, that humans could not understand. With this development comes much excitement and much fear. Computing has finally reached a new level, that could potentially mean even greater accomplishments in the future. However, Elon Musk, Bill Gates, and Steven Hawking have all warned that AI could potentially have unforeseen consequences on the human race. At this potential turning point in technology engineering, let’s take a look back at what got us here.

1955 – The term “Artificial Intelligence” is coined

In a study jointly proposed by many scientists and tech professionals, they mentioned the term “artificial intelligence”, the first time that phrase was used. That one term really brought all of the work that had been done in the field over multiple centuries under the same banner.

 

1997 – Deep Blue is the first AI robot to beat a world champion at chess

This was the first time that many citizens learned about the true power of AI. Deep Blue, an AI machine made by IBM, defeated Garry Kasparov, the reigning chess world champion. It was truly a defining moment in AI history that brought positive publicity and awareness to the field of AI.

 

2009 – Google starts to develop a driverless car

This was the starting date of Google’s driverless car development. Many aspects of road conditions and other cars had to be taken into account during programming, making this task widely considered impossible. But Google defied all expectations when it became the first self-driving vehicle to pass a driving test in the USA in 2014.

These three events are widely considered to be the largest huge milestones in AI development history. With every coming day, more developments are made, and we get closer to a world where AI will eventually match, and perhaps even surpass, human intelligence. Until then, we can only wait in suspense and in excitement for the world that awaits us!

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Dreams Tonite: A Playlist For Dreamers

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August: Host of the dog days of summer, and quite literally the “Sunday” of summer. Whether you’re excited about school or not, the month can produce bittersweet sentiments. For some, school is unimaginable and the very thought of it makes you want to vomit. For others, school represents friends and cherished extra-curriculars. Whatever the case may be, August is the month of last ditch efforts to savour the sweltering sun and relax in non-sub-zero temperatures that Canadians are so accustomed to. With this in mind, having the perfect soundtrack to your summer can be a tedious and sometimes nearly impossible task to curate. Therefore, I’ve taken it upon myself to carefully craft a playlist for the last days of summer. Lay in the grass, live in the moment, and maybe give these songs a listen.

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Some Thoughts on General Social Issues [I]

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Preface

I should say that I am in no way against Liberalism and any schools of thought associated with general modern Liberalism. A comparison could be made between schools of thought and physics is that there is a dichotomy between the classic approach and the modern approach.

In physics, the classic approach is the Newtonian style of physics where mathematics is useful and vector/scalar values are relatively small. It is the approach where the action at a distance concept applies. However, in modern physics Newtonian physics is virtually overhauled completely, and the action-at-a-distance idea is replaced by the concept of fundamental particles and the wave-particle duality. Not to mention in modern physics relativistic theory and quantum theory are used in which mathematics falls down completely nearing the apex of theory. Precision and accuracy in classic physics is instead replaced by quantum probability, namely Heisenberg’s Principle of Uncertainty (where velocity and position cannot both be measured exactly).

Much like modern schools of thoughts, there is a lot of grey area in between opposed to the clear distinction between the left and the right wings. To me, the modern framework of schools of thought does cause confusion since words like “liberalism” and “conservatism” are thrown around virtually every single day yet their original meanings have become distorted. As a result of such, in this article I will attempt to rigorously define the terms so that, at least to me, there will not be much confusion.

PART 1. POLARIZATION

I highly recommend reading Genocidal Organ as a thought provoker to understand the way that words and language work, as it truly makes a good premise for the current way the media functions. Words have a lot of influence, from the extreme to the moderate, on human emotions. Certain words incite stronger emotions than others, and leads to people feeling more inclined towards certain ideas than others. I suppose, to some extent, that is the power of the foundation of the human society as a collective. After all, communication is what we use on a daily basis. From how I see it, bias is inevitable as it is part of being human. Even those who claim to be ‘fully objective’ are biased and are inclined towards on ideology compared to another as a result of the subjectivity of objectivity. (See: researcher’s bias/confirmation bias).

Based on these biases, I usually do not discriminate or disparage people for their opinions unless it is polarizing and unjustified. However, something which I cannot tolerate is the current way the mass media functions, as it to some extent can be considered propaganda. Not to discredit the liberal ideology, the majority of media outlets are vastly left wing (i.e. in the modern sense that they trend towards equality and individual freedoms, or what many would consider nowadays, social justice.) While this has had its many benefits on society, such as the various advancement of civil and social issues, we have seen many drawbacks in recent years. I feel like in this case the United States of America would be a very notable case study since the left wing media has indeed contributed to many of the issues in recent years, ranging from the riots (if you read the article you once again notice the confusion between the different school of thought terms being thrown around) to the general suppression of different ideologies (read: Google’s Ideological Echo Chamber.)

If one were to do research on any recent social issues, any semblance of what we would consider to be objectivity, or the semblance to other ideologies that are not left wing is quite minimal, if not nonexistent. While I do not support nor go against the various issues that have occurred, I feel that general discussions need to be raised about the various social issues that have occurred, opposed to the blatant attacks on any persons or ideologies that do not coincide itself to what is the modern left wing thought. It does not take one to venture very far into the internet to see the effects of the media bias. The Wall Street Journal, the Washington Post, the Independent, CNN, MSNBC, and Buzzfeed are all pivotal to the promotion of what I would consider borderline extreme modern liberal ideology due to the immense media polarization of the majority of news articles written by their employed journalists. The Wall Street Journal just recently was the centrepiece involved in a fiasco involving YouTube which has led to a massive change in YouTube’s monetization policy. From these issues and more, I feel that the media bias has become more of a damage to society than it can be a good thing as it promotes a central homogeneous ideology that does not allow dissent.

In a time where it is becoming more important to be aware of the various issues in the world from many different perspectives (such as the rivalry between the two superpowers, the United States of America and the Russian Federations), these media outlets which does not promote critical thinking abilities can only serve to create detriments and ultimately cause more harm than good if tensions do rise. Instead of destroying dissenting and opposing ideologies, we should be more open and accept more discussion pointers. Let us think critical, accept different ideologies to truly make an impact.

Part Two and beyond to come in a separate post(s). 

The Mind of a Perfectionist

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Everyone defines their high school years differently. My teacher said she barely remembers her high school years- that’s how insignificant they were. However, I hold steadfast to the idea that nothing is truly insignificant, we just perceive it to be that way. The dust particles that float around your screen while you read this have been around since the beginning of the universe, as matter is neither created nor destroyed. Is something as dust still as insignificant as you had previously thought?

Similarly, nothing you do or feel is insignificant, even if your own mind convinces you so. The feeling of incompetence originates from that lowly self-perception, the feeling that you’re “not good enough” no matter what you do. Perfectionists, whom I once was, often perceive themselves this way. This past year, I had been doing well in school. However, reading my 2:45 AM journal entry, you would never think so. This is what goes on inside the mind of a perfectionist:

For the past year, I can’t help but feel like a failure and disappointment to myself. I assumed everyone feels that way from time to time, but all the time? It’s 2:45 AM right now on a school night, and I can’t go to sleep. My brain is like a computer I can’t shut down, a computer that I always think has malfunctioned; calculating everything I could have done better on and I need to do from now on. I’m not suffering from insomnia, so what’s keeping me up at night? And at 2:45 AM, it hit me.

I’ve always been driven by passion and interest. This year, it’s about exactly what mark I need to maintain in my school courses.  I should be chasing growth, but when your reputation and academic future relies on a mark you get, a lot of the times, you end up not chasing growth, but perfection. Many times, I show up to class not to learn for the sake of gaining knowledge and inspiration, but because I need to know whatever lesson to do excellent on Thursday’s quiz… I need to get this mark on this thing to get into this program so i can live a decent life. It’s ridiculous… this vicious cycle of attaining perfection.

In a digitized world, the most outstanding and fastest technologies have warped our day-to-day lives, plugged into our heads and clinging to our legs wherever we go. Incarnates of perfection are paraded on every store-front we walk by, plastered on instagram posts we scroll by, flaunted by every self-conceited, seemingly self-fulfilled person… and our subconscious takes note. Constantly nibbling at the information we’re being fed, a USB feeding us file after file… the constant whirring, beeping, and ringing of a….

machine…?

In today’s world, is that what our existence essentially must account to?

It’s easy to blame societal influence for the flaws in our self-perception. However, it’s not “today’s world” that decides anything- it’s you. In the midst of that night, I looked to the specks of dust dancing in the moon’s spotlight. The universe is constantly evolving and changing seasons, and finally, I began to accept myself as that way too. Never forget, that your life changes only when you do.

 

Making Peace

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At 8 I was told I’m too dark.

At 10 I was told I look like a terrorist.

At 11 I was told I should shave my face.

At 15 I was told I am too short.

And at 17 I have finally made peace with myself and my body.

Having gone to 14 different schools, I taught myself to have thick skin, to over look the constant bullying and criticism that comes along with being the new “freak” at school. But somehow I was able to overlook the comments that would be falsely and harshly judging my character but I was never able to overlook the comments made on the way I looked.

When I first moved to Canada, I was studying at UHill elementary in UBC. But shortly after turning 8 years old, during the summer my family and I moved yet again, and I found out I am one of the three people of colour in my school. Because of the constant bullying, I ate by myself and some days I flat out refused to eat, I hated going out in the sun because I would only tan. When I went up a grade, my family said I was too skinny, given the fact you could count my rib bones through my shirt. Although things did start to get better for me because I made my first friend there, she was picked on for being too pale so she understood some what I was going through.

When we moved again, it was a fairly diverse school, and although I only went for three weeks, I wish I hadn’t. People called me a terrorist and called me worse names than before, names I would ask my parents about. At this point I flat out refused to get out of the house all summer. I was still not happy with the way my skin looked, so I wore mostly black to make me look lighter against the clothes I wore. When I moved schools again, I was happy because I was friends with many people right away and people were most accepting. Then in about a year, my friends started calling me a boy, because unlike them, I didn’t wear a proper bra yet, because unlike them, most of my friends were guys, and on top of all that the hair on my upper lip would stand out more than most.

Now although I wasn’t discriminated against because of the colour of my skin, I added another thing to my list that I didn’t like about myself. I still have people comment and point it out, but thankfully I don’t let it bother me anymore. In February of this year,  I started to go to the gym. And although I wasn’t seeing too many results I was losing weight and becoming lean. And when I initially started to try dresses on in March, I wasn’t too happy with the way my body looked in any dress. But around came April, and I went to a bridal shop with a friend and after trying on 17 dresses that day alone, I tried on an dark red mermaid dress and I was so happy with the way my body had started to look!

As time went on, I got more and more lazy with how many times a week I would go to the gym. Because of that and stress eating because of IB exams and diploma’s, I found I had gained unhealthy weight again. I became overly conscious about how much I was eating, and I began to eat very little. In June whilst my grandparents were here, they made me promise them that I would eat more and or they would leave early if I didn’t start eating more. I started eating about 2500 calories a day and going to the gym at least 5 days a week with next to no cardio, just moderate weight training and HITT (high interval intensity training) twice a week. Although I was still not seeing the big difference in my body I wanted, I didn’t realize that by the end of July, I had gained 13 pounds, even though I had lost a few inches off my hips and waist! Once I saw that I was 113 pounds finally, I was truly content with my body even if it wasn’t very curvy or strong yet. I started to feel more motivated after seeing that big increase in muscle mass. I started watching a lot of fitness journey videos and about how so many people had the same struggles with their bodies when they first started going to the gym. I did a lot more research about warm ups and exercises, and came up with a workout regimen. I tried my best to only have a cheat snack thrice a week. But the more I did this, the most I fell in love with the way my body is and the way it looks and performs. Instead of focusing on how my body looks, I focused more on how well my body was performing! I never stopped to appreciate how much my body can bear and how well it copes after a workout or how it doesn’t let me down.

For me, I don’t think I would have been able to love my body the way I do now if I had kept focusing on just the way it looks and the way it doesn’t looks like a fitness models (yet). Visual result and performance results takes time, and patience is key. I think we have to be able to love our body before we can start seeing true and effective results. For me, this was a long hard struggle of looking at the glass half full rather than the glass half empty.  From learning to loving the way I rock my skin and body type to the way I look in all clothes and how I look whether I stand or sit, I am finally and for once contented with the way I look.

Things To Do When You’re Bored

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This is an overused blog topic. I know this for a fact.

Summer is meant for hanging out with friends. Summer is meant for spending quality time with your family. But, if you’re anything like me and like to spend this free time cooped up in your bedroom alone rather than going outside and enjoying the vitamin D, then here are a few things you can do before summer 2017 ends.

Welcome to the guide that definitely wasn’t asked for and probably will not do good for the increasing numbers of antisocial teens.

1: Binge-Watch a TV Show

I mean, this is a no brainer! What’s better than sitting down by yourself and watching a couple seasons of a show? You know, no big deal. I’m currently hooked on Brooklyn Nine-Nine and Grey’s Anatomy. I’ve finished seven seasons of Grey’s in about five weeks. I like to call that an accomplishment.

2: Make Spotify Playlists

Okay, now this is actually fun and a good use of your time, quite honestly. What I like to do is make playlists for varying moods, like this one meant for calming vibes:

It’s super fun going through Spotify to find music you like, and putting them together. Besides, school is about to start again and you’ll need a good playlist to listen to while going and coming from there.

3: Join a Fandom

Fandoms, I think, are a blessing to this planet. I’ve loved the band One Direction for as long as I can remember, and a few years ago I made the decision to join the online fandom, and it’s probably been one of my best decisions thus far. Everyone’s a family there, and you can meet new people and make new friends. You can also get recognition for making cool things like fanfiction, fan art, video edits, and picture edits! If there’s a celebrity you happen to like, I definitely suggest joining the online fandom over the summer.

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4: Do Things For Yourself!

Self love is the best love! Take care of yourself over the summer. Do things like putting on a face mask, painting your nails, a bubble bath, etc. etc. It always leaves me feeling great.

5: Watch Tutorials For Things That You’ll Probably Never Do

You know, those 30 second Instagram cooking tutorials, or makeup tutorials. Or you know, ones that make absolutely no sense whatsoever. They’re still fun to watch, though!

                        

6: Go On Children’s Websites and Trick The Children

The fact that I’m suggesting you do this and have done this in the first place is kind of alarming and proves I truly am lonely, but hear me out. One of the most fun things to do is going on Club Penguin, Poptropica, or Roblox and trick the children their into thinking you’re one of them. Or, in simpler terms, trick them into thinking you’re a child as well. It’s quite fun and will give you many laughs. (Also, Poptropica isn’t that bad of a game.)

    

7: Learn All The Lyrics To A Rap Song

My friends, this is one of the most fun thing you could ever do. I recently learnt all the lyrics to Super Bass by Nicki Minaj, and, if I do say so myself, I spit fire everywhere I go.

 

And there, my fellow introverts, is seven unique things to do when you’re bored but would rather wallow away in your loneliness than doing the easy task of meeting up with a friend!

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Money in Soccer: The Corruption Conundrum

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On August 4, 2017, a soccer team spent 222 million U.S. dollars (193 million euros) on a single player.

For all those people reading this who are fans of soccer, you probably know that this transfer was one of astronomical proportions, a seismic shock that spread across the globe and pierced the hearts of every diehard fan alike. Also, Hi! I’m a soccer/football fan too.

For everyone else who doesn’t have a EPL app on their phone (just me?), lemme clear a few things up. Like any sport, soccer teams spend money every winter and summer season to either buy, sell or loan certain soccer players from other teams to join their own. In many ways, it is a rejuvenation of each team, to fix certain errors in play, and often a preparation for an exciting new season in August. (Which is starting THIS Saturday, by the way).

Usually, these soccer transfers go from 6 digit figures to 8 digit figures, notable ones being Cristiano Ronaldo from Manchester United to Real Madrid for around 94 million euros, Luis Suarez from Liverpool to FC Barcelona for around 64 million euros, and so on. However, let me  be the first to tell you 193 million euros (or 222 million dollars), is the first seen in history.

Neymar Jr (seen above), a Brazilian left-wing superstar at a mere 22 years of age, transferred from FC Barcelona to Paris Saint-Germain, in the most expensive signing of a player since the beginning of time. The cost was so expensive, that various organizations and the federal government of France had to put the club owner, Nasser Al-Khelafi, on the watch-list in suspension of corruption.

For 99% of the world population, 222 million U.S. dollars is a pretty difficult number to digest, so let me help you with some helpful comparisons:

1. 222 million U.S. dollars can buy approximately 750 Ferrari’s

2. 222 million U.S. dollars can buy this mansion, and still have around 70 million left.

3. 222 million U.S. dollars is a higher GDP than the countries of Bermuda, Monaco, Venezuela and Libya in 2016.

4. The second most expensive private island in the world, Ronde Island, costs around 100 million dollars.

That means, with 222 million U.S. dollars, you could buy that island, as well as this Lincoln Park mansion too, and still have around 50 million left over… (just imagine putting this mansion on that island, then swimming in 50 million 1 dollars bills…heaven isn’t it.)

With a world record transfer deal like this, it is no wonder why some people are angered over the cost. Twitter users have taken to the internet to complain all about the exorbitant cost of this transfer, and what the money could have been used for instead. (Since anonymous, no link to the tweet…sorry)

But, let’s remember, that even though the cost is ridiculously high, soccer is fundamentally entertainment: one of the most expensive forms of entertainment. European soccer clubs make billions of dollars annually for ticket sales, sponsorships, merchandise and other revenue streams. According to Business Insider UK, PSG alone (the club that spent 222 million dollars on Neymar Jr.) earned approximately 1.4 billion dollars in 2016, the highest of any club that year. So with so much money, is it really a surprise that corruption runs amok? I hope not.

To a majority of soccer fans out there, like myself, there has been a disgusting pattern developing in the sport: the pursuit of money. Big name players, club heroes, legends of the game and young stars, all running off to different clubs and countries looking for a bigger paycheque. They ignore their loyalties and fans, all for an extra bit of back-pocket cash. But it doesn’t stop there. Organizations like FIFA have been overtly corrupt for the past 10 years, claiming themselves to be a non-profit, while possessing over a billion dollars in surplus.

Just when you thought the corruption could not get worse, it does. For the 2022 World Cup, the country of Qatar has reportedly had over 1,200 deaths in construction workers since preparations in 2010. If you are looking for evidence, Fortune International wrote an article talking about different stadiums that were built from “slave workers,” ones who earned pennies for their work, ones who suffer from a lack of basic human rights, and people troubled by other injustices. I highly recommend you have a skim. These are the people who work behind the scenes, the ones who put their lives at risk so we can enjoy 90 minutes of football. Ultimately, this has become the state of modern-day football, and for many like myself, it’s revolting.

But what can we really do? Not much, but what we’ve always done best. Enjoy soccer for the sake of soccer. It is the world’s most celebrated sport, the most popular sport. A sport that can bring millions upon millions of people together under one roof: the love for soccer. And yes, while there is a fraction of the population that plays the sport for a career, the rest us play, for the competition, for the team work, for the moment when you score a goal.

It doesn’t matter how poor or rich you are, the emotions that surge within you when you play the game are the exact same. Whether you have the 100 dollar Premier League Nike Ball, or a hand-sewn ball covered in a trash bag, rolling on the dust. It doesn’t matter if you have your neighbour friend Bill, or Real Madrid’s Gareth Bale playing along side you. It doesn’t matter if you play on the Camp Nou, or pavement on the street. We play, to play. This is what soccer is truly meant to be. This, my friends, is entertainment.

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A Note On “Beach Bodies”

The scorching heat is a reminder of a season embraced by many, but somewhat dreaded by others. That’s right, now’s the time to break out the sunscreen and bikinis, because trips to the pool, lake, or beach are just around the corner. For many of us, along with the promise of fun and the sun, there comes a certain sense of anxiety or self-consciousness as to the way we may be perceived by others.

The media has created this image of what the “perfect body” should be, and for the vast majority of us, this image just isn’t a realistic lens through which we can view ourselves. It’s easy to become obsessed or at least intrigued by the idea of having a flat stomach, a thigh gap, or washboard abs, especially when society has tied the ideas of a perfect body and an individual’s worth together. The fact of the matter is that this creates a toxic perception of body image for many people; whether you’re male, female, young, old, black, white, or anywhere in between, it’s difficult to look at advertisements without comparing yourself to the models in them and thinking about how you stack up against them. As unfortunate as it may feel at times, unless you’re an elite athlete, bodybuilder, model, or you follow a strict diet and exercise regimen, it’s unlikely that you will ever be able to look at yourself in the mirror and see the body that society has put on a pedestal.

 

And you know what? That’s okay.

 

Very few people fit into the mold of what we’re told that a perfect body is.

This is something that I have personally struggled with for many years, and have only come to peace with recently. Many of my friends growing up, and even now, are high-level athletes, are naturally slim, or just really enjoy going to the gym and living a healthy lifestyle. For me, who struggled with athletics until I was 14, and who still fights the urge to just lay on the couch eating Cheezies instead of going for a run, I always felt like I was the fat friend. It’s difficult not to feel that way when your best friend wears a size 4 and you wear a size 12, yet you stand eye-to-eye. The mountains of photographic evidence of this amassed over the years don’t help much either. It took years for me to be comfortable enough with the cellulite and stretch marks on my thighs to wear bikini bottoms instead of board shorts.

Maybe you wear one-piece bathing suits because you feel like they cover up or camouflage your insecurities. Maybe you’re the last one to take your shirt off before jumping in the lake, and the first one to put it back on when you come back out. Maybe you completely avoid situations where you feel exposed because they’re too much to handle. For the longest time, I was in the same boat as you. Now that I’ve begun to accept myself, I’m going to let you in on a little secret that helped me. The people that you surround yourself with, whether they are friends or family, care about you and love you for who you are, not for the number that you see on the scale. They don’t care how you look in a bathing suit, or in anything else. Chances are that they’re struggling with some of the same worries that you are. Even though nothing has physically changed for me since I began this journey toward total self-acceptance, I feel so much better knowing that the people around me simply don’t give a second thought as to how many stomach rolls I have or how thick my thighs are.

 

 

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Summer Movie List!!!

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With many summer commitments, like summer school and SHAD, coming to an end, youth in Calgary are starting to find more time on their hands and starting to head out to the movies with friends more often. I personally have already watched a good number of movies this summer with both friends and family, and I must say that it’s probably one of the best ways to relax and chill! For those of you looking to start watching more movies, I’ve decided to help compile a list of the best summer movies (in my opinion). Don’t worry, the below introductions for the movies will be mostly spoiler free!

Spiderman: Homecoming

I’ll be completely honest, I’ve never been a huge fan of the Spiderman series. Ever since I was little, I always thought Spiderman was the least “cool” of all the Marvel superheroes (I probably just offended 500 people right there). In fact, the only reason that I saw this movie was because I do my very best to keep up with all of the Marvel Cinematic Universe lore, and missing a movie would mess up all the continuity that was already established in my brain. The movie was actually a lot of fun to watch, with lots of unexpected humour and new perspectives about the world that the characters live in. Tom Holland was a great Spiderman actor, and the storyline played perfectly into everything that was already known about the other Marvel movies. This movie made me even more hyped up for the next instalment in the MCU, Thor Ragnarok! You can read more about Spiderman: Homecoming in Ananya’s post from a few days ago!

Dunkirk

So one day I was flipping through the Wikipedia app on my phone and I went to the trending pages bar, to see that the Battle of Dunkirk was the top visited page in the last 24 hours. I was really quite confused about why a battle so long ago in WWII would all of a sudden be the most searched up article on Wikipedia, so I did a quick Google search and voila: it was Christopher Nolan’s new war epic. My first Christopher Nolan movie was Interstellar, which thoroughly impressed me, and so I decided to watch Dunkirk as well to see if it actually lived up to the reputation that critics were giving it. During the movie, the dialogue, explosions, and stressful music all kept me on the edge of my seat. I do have my criticisms for the storyline about the airforce. There were only three British Spitfires from start to finish, and so dogfights were not as exciting as I anticipated. It was also really hard at the beginning to tell which planes were German and which were British, so when a plane went down I wasn’t sure if I should have been happy or sad. The land and sea story lines more than made up for the shortcomings in the air storyline however. All in all, it was a really well made movie that had a perfect soundtrack, which I would highly recommend seeing.

Transformers: The Last Knight

One. Last. Time. Michael Bay’s last Transformers movie lived up to his reputation, with crazy amounts of CGI and an excessive number of explosions. It was an absolutely crazy thriller, and my love for the Transformers series through the years makes me a biased supporter of this movie. I used to be that kid with all the different Transformers toys lined up neatly in my room, and I absolutely enjoyed my first Transformers movie. I know that lots of people criticize the entire Transformers franchise for having an underwhelming repetitive storyline, and I have to at least agree somewhat with that criticism. That doesn’t stop me from recommending this movie to anybody who loves breathtaking scenes and epic robot-on-robot moments!

Despicable Me 3

I’ve been waiting for this one since Despicable Me 2. Way back then, I had a bet with someone that Gru would go back to evil. I don’t remember who that someone was, but if they are reading this right now, please buy me ice cream at McDonald’s like you promised! It was pretty much what you would expect from a good-guy-turned-bad-guy-turned-good-guy-again movie, with random wacky stuff like chewing gum all over the place and a real life (kinda) unicorn. As great as the movie was, I think that it didn’t quite top the Minions movie. Perhaps it’s time for a shift to more of the little yellow guys!

 

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