Youth of YYC: Anonymous, 17

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”I just want everyone to have hope. It might not be the same as The Shawshank Redemption, but I’ve escaped death so many times. Thoughts of suicide is a serious thing and shouldn’t be ignored. You deserve to live and make memories until you’re satisfied. Have confidence in yourself. It’s easier said than done, but the world wouldn’t be the way it is without you.

Personally, I’ve been through lots of hardship myself. My mother left me with my grandparents at an early age to work abroad, and I grew up as a smart student with a big attitude that was always involved in fist fights and being violent all the time; it might be because my grandfather was a police man so I was taught not to act too clumsy or weak in front of anyone. When he passed away, I had to go to Canada and live with my mother and stepdad who I’d never met, and half brother who was just born. I had a hard time adjusting and I was bullied for being fob, and my parents had anger management issues so I was very lonely.

Long story short; I have clinical depression, I have been sexually assaulted, and I was doing really bad at school. I couldn’t really depend on anyone because my parents can’t know either because they’re the type who would blame me for thing I didn’t do. I thought suicide was the only way out, and I’ve tried doing it so many times, yet something inside me always tells me that it’s going to get better, just wait. Even if I’m still holding on to that small string of hope, I’ll depend on it. You never know what kind of amazing future you’ll be missing out on.”

– Anonymous, 17